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List-Unsubscribe: , List-Archive: List-Post: List-Help: List-Subscribe: , Cc: guix-devel@gnu.org Errors-To: guix-devel-bounces+larch=yhetil.org@gnu.org Sender: "Guix-devel" X-Migadu-Flow: FLOW_IN X-Migadu-Country: US ARC-Message-Signature: i=1; a=rsa-sha256; c=relaxed/relaxed; d=yhetil.org; s=key1; t=1645889985; h=from:from:sender:sender:reply-to:subject:subject:date:date: message-id:message-id:to:to:cc:cc:mime-version:mime-version: content-type:content-type:in-reply-to:in-reply-to: references:references:list-id:list-help:list-unsubscribe: list-subscribe:list-post:dkim-signature; bh=1Z4g34UKjS4LbP+Y05y8de97G9vtrKy7M31G/J9ydSs=; b=kIqz/L36JGadgLwxLsCdCOKcAH4Uy/4/7oveYj2LmDTvlYM6oOHnRbxJjVmHEpM3zPD5z6 /HCTKIismsXfsfSjG9MkX1TvpOSM5G33FBXTAil13ejfZvezAm3XJTrvBGbFR3s7WuKCg4 YrHJmmKLuKiZWnjzRZxRMn4S9V5pcZG7ShgHoGjFyzBxqYSEKf67mANqIg/X3zj7VmgWib wn5nOMOGsbtYLAJCgIAtQUueOPdnvhHYybeQ2HsYME5r+euDjK4AQiw0Ojw7BuTSnbXvqm 1HbqHdVQeJAyKfOLrs+7AB9Ivlo4X+z7ChESVroKWQJnv1nDl0OtJ2mzk33d1g== ARC-Seal: i=1; s=key1; d=yhetil.org; t=1645889985; a=rsa-sha256; cv=none; b=s5DOSOY8XH8ne52rbqYBWUivyJ6qvIMwzYcZDgGVd4ul4tMzpXqQ1NFO8qAqWK5qTKUgGO yyQbfCXqRyGu6DVfACqodtNRnWX7dTItrNz0YjM/kS0ks+XIinUuiadxF3o04sRirGY6VX mcy5ttW4fpm+YWyc5Sh5leTkoiKOsd6Zlyv4Y2+nuGJRq78zg8kG+ppnCwBSh0vVCpkHcE bHOnyKZrNlYzOnrKnsS2T8hLYtHahVVGDCqYhxEeG7doIMrlN5+LlYEi5jDMqvbhT4nLsV BYdBqxa6cfKbWdas1TjOlPJ8g5O0oZJEjYN6ykjIi768GfnmkTMwud6kUSfuzQ== ARC-Authentication-Results: i=1; aspmx1.migadu.com; dkim=fail ("headers rsa verify failed") header.d=gmail.com header.s=20210112 header.b=e6rKSC6+; dmarc=fail reason="SPF not aligned (relaxed)" header.from=gmail.com (policy=none); spf=pass (aspmx1.migadu.com: domain of "guix-devel-bounces+larch=yhetil.org@gnu.org" designates 209.51.188.17 as permitted sender) smtp.mailfrom="guix-devel-bounces+larch=yhetil.org@gnu.org" X-Migadu-Spam-Score: 5.88 Authentication-Results: aspmx1.migadu.com; dkim=fail ("headers rsa verify failed") header.d=gmail.com header.s=20210112 header.b=e6rKSC6+; dmarc=fail reason="SPF not aligned (relaxed)" header.from=gmail.com (policy=none); spf=pass (aspmx1.migadu.com: domain of "guix-devel-bounces+larch=yhetil.org@gnu.org" designates 209.51.188.17 as permitted sender) smtp.mailfrom="guix-devel-bounces+larch=yhetil.org@gnu.org" X-Migadu-Queue-Id: 4FB0243EEB X-Spam-Score: 5.88 X-Migadu-Scanner: scn0.migadu.com X-TUID: nV4R3TKicpge --00000000000039c78005d8ed9ec6 Content-Type: text/plain; charset="UTF-8" Thank you for this response and for sharing some of your own experiences. I just want to address this issue: >The key reason the thread / my mails have caused hurt seems to be that >they've come across as an attempt to debate transgender experiences. >What I've not been able to understand is how that happened, since I >actually tried very hard from the beginning to make it as clear as >possible that I had no such intention. I think that the main reason that this thread turned contentious is the body of rhetoric you were referencing. In an earlier part of the thread, you said: >Not to hide anything: personally, I ascribe to views (broadly, radical >feminism) which contradict some key aspects of the transgender movement. >However, that's irrelevant in this context. Whatever your intentions were, the rhetoric you were using to argue your point comes from the discourse of Trans Exclusionary Radical Feminism, that is not irrelevant in this context. You were using the same talking points that people use to bully and harass trans people in person and online and others in positions of power in my country and across the globe are actively using to reject the lived experiences of transgender individuals and deny them basic human rights (like access to health care). This is why your proposal elicited a trauma response for some people. I will give you the benefit of the doubt that this was not your intention but for many people in the world and in the Guix community your argument cannot be separated from this context. For my own part, conversations about what benefits [cis-]women in a community without including any [cis-]women in the conversation (though from my persepctive as a feminist, I would argue that Liliana and Christine's input as women should have been heeded as such) ties into a centuries-long patriarchal trend of talking around women about their best interests instead of speaking with them about their needs. I hope you do not view this as an attack, I am merely framing this conversation within broader contexts that led this thread to cause harm to members of the community since you asked us why it had this unintended impact. Best, Morgan On Fri, Feb 25, 2022 at 11:03 PM Taylan Kammer wrote: > Hi Christine, > > Thank you for opening up. It was definitely not apparent to me that you > had such a reaction to the thread. As we know, text doesn't convey the > nuances of human communication very well, and I had read your initial > emails as rather relaxed, or at worst mildly annoyed. Had I realized > that they were coming from such a stressful position, I would have > responded differently. > > My heartfelt apologies in that regard. > > For us to be able to build up better mutual understanding and empathy in > the future, perhaps it would be good for me to open up about some things > as well. > > --- > > Frankly, I think we're more similar than anyone taking a glance at the > thread might ever think. I've had experiences with gender dysphoria as > well, and my dis-identification with male peers has certainly played an > important role in the development of my severe chronic depression. > > I'm a rather reserved person when it comes to personal matters, not as > open about my feelings as you are (and good on you -- it's not doing me > much good to be the way I am in that regard), so I don't want to go into > too much detail, but let's just say I've had multiple near-death moments > throughout the years in relation to my condition, and the latest bout of > severe suicidal thoughts was just a few months ago. > > The partly hostile responses (from others, not you!) I've received in > the thread have been anything but pleasant, to say the least, but have > not led to a major breakdown, perhaps thanks to the medication I'm on, > which might be why I was able to respond a few more times... > > I've packaged higan for Guix, back in 2015. Near (then byuu) helped me > revitalize some of my fondest childhood memories with the emulator he's > built. After taking some interest in the program's workings, I was also > briefly active on his web forum, and had positive interactions with him. > We weren't close personally, but I had built up a *lot* of fondness and > respect for him. The news of his suicide was absolutely awful to me. > > Moreover, a certain web forum that shall not be named which was behind > the bullying campaign against Near/byuu (and countless others) also has > a "profile" of sorts written up on me in one of their threads, as a > potential future bullying target or something. So far I've been spared, > but they do have my home address, and my employer's details are a web > search away. > > All of which is to say, I *deeply* empathize with your position, and at > no point would I ever wish to inflict this type of pain on anyone. > > I would like to sincerely reassure you that the sole purpose in sending > the patch, and subsequent messages, was to pledge for another view to be > respected on equal regard to the one that's already correctly respected. > > The reason I've felt strongly about that, pressing me to reiterate the > position in the subsequent thread by Zimoun, was of course not some > twisted wish to cause hurt. Rather, it was because that perspective is > based on the experiences of countless AFAB people who have been hurt in > countless ways, just like the perspective that is currently rightfully > encoded in the CoC is based on the experiences of trans people. (I've > also found the sex-based perspective to have strong explanatory power > w.r.t. my personal problems, although I've come to see that as almost > irrelevant in the face of everything else I've learned.) > > --- > > There's one thing I've not been able to understand. I don't know if you > wish to respond any further, but if so, please note that the following > is a completely genuine inquiry, and not meant in any confrontational > manner at all, just like the rest of this email. I think it would be > very helpful for the future if you could help me with this: > > The key reason the thread / my mails have caused hurt seems to be that > they've come across as an attempt to debate transgender experiences. > What I've not been able to understand is how that happened, since I > actually tried very hard from the beginning to make it as clear as > possible that I had no such intention. > > For example, I had said things like: > > "I can assure you that I'm 100% fine with the CoC mentioning gender > identity and, for example, if someone were to make inflammatory > remarks towards the worldview of transgender people in this community, > I wouldn't hesitate opposing that." > > And in the summary: > > "I sincerely have no issue with the CoC protecting people based on > gender identity or other transgender status, and am equally > disinterested as others in having debates about that topic." > > Yet something seems to have gone wrong. > > There was one email, my response to Liliana, in which I've touched on > the debate itself, but that was even before your emails so I don't > think it was that... > > Reading over my mails, I just don't understand why they might have been > misunderstood so badly. If you could shed some light on that, I would be > very grateful! It would certainly help me avoid mistakes in the future, > if I were to talk about these matters in a different place. > > > I hope this message reaches you in the empathetic way it's meant. I've > decided to sacrifice about half a night's sleep to write it, because it > was certainly important enough for that. Well, I probably wouldn't have > been able to sleep anyway. :-) > > Kindly, > > Taylan > > > On 25.02.2022 20:42, Christine Lemmer-Webber wrote: > > Taylan, I respect you and your work. I don't think you realize how much > > hurt you've caused here, and I want to take your contributions at good > > faith. But this has continued for days and it has definitely hurt a > > lot. > > > > I just got out of a presentation that I've been in crunchmode preparing > > for all week. It was a technically intense presentation with a demo > > that required a lot of engineering effort to get there. I was stressed > > enough. But the demo went well. Everyone was excited, including me. > > > > I got off the call, and normally what I would feel after something ended > > like that was relief. But I didn't feel relieved. I felt... tired. > > > > And then I started crying uncontrollably for over an hour. Because the > > pressure of the presentation was so great that I had to push down and > > push down all the feelings I had about what was happening on this > > thread, but when it was over, they overflowed. > > > > And I don't believe, I don't want to believe, you meant to cause harm or > > hurt. You have several messages recently clearly indicating that you > > feel you have been accused of things. This is not an accusation. This > > is an appeal to empathy. > > > > Normally I would have left this be quiet, or send an email one-on-one, > > when things reached this stage. But I tried to help this conversation > > end in quiet, and it hasn't happened, and it's been days. So I'm > > relaying my experiences here. > > > > Taylan Kammer writes: > > > >> On 24.02.2022 14:21, Ekaitz Zarraga wrote: > >>> > >>>> I suspect you haven't properly read any of my mails and jumped to > conclusions > >>>> based on a quick skim, or something like that. > >>> > >>> Well, I've been reading them and some people told you to stop and you > still > >>> continue. People already told you were bothering them. > >> > >> I haven't posted anything after Andy and Oliver asked to take it > off-list, > >> other than responding to Blake's accusation of course. > >> > >> Before that, nobody told me to stop or that I was bothering them, > unless I > >> missed it? > > > > I did... > > > > And maybe you missed it, but I definitely did. I *definitely* did. > > This was on Monday, it is now Friday. Here's what I said across my > > two emails: > > > > - I had already expressed that my very first reaction was wanting to > > support broader language but NOT to have a debate about trans > experiences: > > > > > My first thought when looking at the top of this thread was, > > > 'well I would be okay with adding a word if it isn't an *entry > point* > > > for debating trans experiences on list' but it looks like it's > likely > > > to be so > > > > - And then I said that, as a person affected, I didn't feel comfortable > > debating these topics on a technical mailing list: > > > > > I'm a transwoman with intersex characteristics. I've certainly > > > read a ton about sexual and gender therory, have read plenty of > > > books on it and I can say without a doubt that I really just don't > > > feel comfortable debating these topics on a technical mailing list. > > > > - And then, when I saw your email where you had pulled back, I tried > > to help everything close in a way that was friendly: > > > > > Ah okay, hadn't seen this post before I replied. > > > > > > It seems the issue is closed then. Look forward to everyone getting > > > back to hacking. :) > > > > Shortly thereafter I stepped away from my computer and went downstairs > > and went downstairs to prepare lunch. Morgan, my wife (who is also a > > Guix user, btw) said, "Are you okay? You look stressed." > > > > And I relayed what happened on this thread. > > > > "Is *that* what's being debated on this list? I'm not a Guix > > *developer*, but I am a Guix *user*. That kind of gender essentialism > > makes me both really want to join the mailing list so I can weigh in > > and really *not* want to have to weigh in because I don't want to have > > to deal with all that. That's not the kind of community I want to > > participate in." > > > > We co-presented at the FOSDEM room together in the "Lisp but Beautiful, > > Lisp for Everyone" talk. A major portion of the talk was about Guix. > > Another major portion of the talk (since "who's representing feminism" > > keeps coming up) was about Morgan's experiences *writing her > > dissertation using a markup language which is secretly a lisp dialect* > > on "Women and Wool Working in Ancient Rome". Her PhD, Masters, Major, > > and Minor were all embedded in gender and sexual analysis through the > > lived experiences of women, primarily cisgender, throughout history. > > No matter how many books you and I have read on gender and sexuality, > > I can guarantee you Morgan has read more. > > > > Anyway if there are any other cisgender women who have presented about > > Guix in a video presentation I would be pleased, but as far as I know, > > she's the only one I've seen do so. Corrections extremely welcome. > > Active steps to pull more women into our community, strongly encouraged. > > > > But at the time I said, "Oh, I think it wrapped up. The person who > > raised it backpedaled and I tried to be friendly in softening the > > closing by saying 'cool let's all get back to hacking!' so I don't think > > we have to worry about it anymore. > > > > And then we had lunch, and I thought it was over. > > > > Imagine my surprise went I sent what I had thought were three very > > clear, but polite, signals asking to not debate over the the experiences > > of transgender people on this list, one of which was a friendly > > acknowledgement that it was over from the person who raised it. But the > > most uncomfortable thing for me was that the reply first thanked me for > > being polite about things, but used it as an *opening* for *another* > > entry point about that. > > > > Can you imagine how that feels? How that looks? > > > > And then it continued for an entire week. > > > > Here I'll say something I haven't said previously: I did not come out as > > transgender for a long time because I was *afraid* to come out as > > transgender. Maybe you know, it's a popular past-time on the internet > > right now to bully prominent trans technologists into suicide as a kind > > of game. Here are two examples: > > > > > https://www.destructoid.com/transgender-dolphin-emulator-developer-dead-age-23/ > > > https://kotaku.com/the-brilliant-snes-emulator-creator-known-as-near-has-d-1847182851 > > > > I currently consider suicide by online bullying to be my highest > > mortality risk factor. Having a community where I feel safe, it's not a > > small thing. The Guix community has felt like one of the nicest, safest > > places in FOSS. > > > > This week it felt a lot less so. The first immediate gut drop I felt > > when I thought "I hope this doesn't turn out to be a hidden entrypoint > > for someone to begin debating my lived experiences" turned out to > > absolutely be true, as far as I can tell. That's how it felt to me. > > > > On that note, just earlier today, you said: > > > >> The inclusion of 'sex' in the CoC would be to recognize the issues > >> faced by female-born people. As far as I'm aware, no female-born > >> person has taken part in the discussion at all, because none seem > >> to exist in the community. (What a coincidence.) > > > > Well as said previously, there's at least one. She's not on the > > guix-devel list, so she's cc'ed, because I don't want anyone to think > > I'm misrepresenting her. She's not on the list but she read everything > > I wrote on here before I sent it. And that's one cisgender woman (with, > > again, no small background in women and gender studies), who *is* a part > > of this community and has even presented at a conference in a heavily > > Guix-related talk, who has expressed that she wouldn't want to be taking > > part or associating herself in this community if it takes a gender > > essentialist turn. > > > > At any rate, here's the thing. Taylan, I really like your work, I would > > like to think that you didn't mean to bring harm or hurt like this. But > > you asked for someone to point to it, and I decided to speak here > > because, since this went on for a week, it must not have been known or > > understood. > > > > At any rate, the updated upstream CoC, seems great. +1 from me. As I > > said, if it wasn't as an entry point for a debate of experiences, as > > just talking about protecting *also* sexual characteristics, great. But > > if it's an entry point for a debate, and it *has been*, about > > qutestioning the lived experiences of trans folk on the internet, > > consider that it already sucks being a trans person on the internet and > > for the most part we just want people to be nice to us so we can do our > > damn work and live in peace. > > > > And I would like for this thread to not, ironically, fork into exactly > > the same thing I am asking to end. Acknowledge maybe, and move on. > > Or just move on. Thank you. > > > > Your hacker Guix friend, > > - Christine > > --00000000000039c78005d8ed9ec6 Content-Type: text/html; charset="UTF-8" Content-Transfer-Encoding: quoted-printable
Thank you for this response and for = sharing some of your own experiences. I just want to address this issue:

>The key reason the thread / my mails have caused= hurt seems to be that
>they've come across as an attempt to debate transgender experiences= .
>What I've not been able to understand is how that happened, since I=
>actually tried very hard from the beginning to make it as clear as
>possible that I had no such intention.

I think= that the main reason that this thread turned contentious is the body of rh= etoric you were referencing. In an earlier part of the thread, you said:

>Not to hide anything: personally, I ascribe=
 to views (broadly, radical
>feminism) which contradict some key aspects of the transgender movement=
.
>However, that's irrelevant in this context.
Whatever your intentions were, the rhetoric you were using to a= rgue your point comes from the discourse of Trans Exclusionary Radical Femi= nism, that is not irrelevant in this context. You were using the same talki= ng points that people use to bully and harass trans people in person and on= line and others in positions of power in my country and across the globe ar= e actively using to reject the lived experiences of transgender individuals= and deny them basic human rights (like access to health care). This is why= your proposal elicited a trauma response for some people. I will give you = the benefit of the doubt that this was not your intention but for many peop= le in the world and in the Guix community your argument cannot be separated= from this context.=C2=A0

For my own part, convers= ations about what benefits [cis-]women in a community without including any= [cis-]women in the conversation (though from my persepctive as a feminist,= I would argue that Liliana and Christine's input as women should have = been heeded as such) ties into a centuries-long patriarchal trend of talkin= g around women about their best interests instead of speaking with them abo= ut their needs.

I hope you do not view this a= s an attack, I am merely framing this conversation within broader contexts = that led this thread to cause harm to members of the community since you as= ked us why it had this unintended impact.

Bes= t,
Morgan

On Fri, Feb 25, 2022 at 11:03 PM Taylan = Kammer <taylan.kammer@gmail.c= om> wrote:
taylan.kammer@gmail.com> writes:
>
>> On 24.02.2022 14:21, Ekaitz Zarraga wrote:
>>>
>>>> I suspect you haven't properly read any of my mails an= d jumped to conclusions
>>>> based on a quick skim, or something like that.
>>>
>>> Well, I've been reading them and some people told you to s= top and you still
>>> continue. People already told you were bothering them.
>>
>> I haven't posted anything after Andy and Oliver asked to take = it off-list,
>> other than responding to Blake's accusation of course.
>>
>> Before that, nobody told me to stop or that I was bothering them, = unless I
>> missed it?
>
> I did...
>
> And maybe you missed it, but I definitely did.=C2=A0 I *definitely* di= d.
> This was on Monday, it is now Friday.=C2=A0 Here's what I said acr= oss my
> two emails:
>
>=C2=A0 - I had already expressed that my very first reaction was wantin= g to
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 support broader language but NOT to have a debate about t= rans experiences:
>
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > My first thought when looking at the top of this thr= ead was,
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > 'well I would be okay with adding a word if it i= sn't an *entry point*
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > for debating trans experiences on list' but it l= ooks like it's likely
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > to be so
>
>=C2=A0 - And then I said that, as a person affected, I didn't feel = comfortable
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 debating these topics on a technical mailing list:
>
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > I'm a transwoman with intersex characteristics.= =C2=A0 I've certainly
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > read a ton about sexual and gender therory, have rea= d plenty of
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > books on it and I can say without a doubt that I rea= lly just don't
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > feel comfortable debating these topics on a technica= l mailing list.
>
>=C2=A0 - And then, when I saw your email where you had pulled back, I t= ried
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 to help everything close in a way that was friendly:
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > Ah okay, hadn't seen this post before I replied.=
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 >
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > It seems the issue is closed then.=C2=A0 Look forwar= d to everyone getting
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0 > back to hacking. :)
>
> Shortly thereafter I stepped away from my computer and went downstairs=
> and went downstairs to prepare lunch.=C2=A0 Morgan, my wife (who is al= so a
> Guix user, btw) said, "Are you okay?=C2=A0 You look stressed.&quo= t;
>
> And I relayed what happened on this thread.
>
> "Is *that* what's being debated on this list?=C2=A0 I'm n= ot a Guix
> *developer*, but I am a Guix *user*.=C2=A0 That kind of gender essenti= alism
> makes me both really want to join the mailing list so I can weigh in > and really *not* want to have to weigh in because I don't want to = have
> to deal with all that.=C2=A0 That's not the kind of community I wa= nt to
> participate in."
>
> We co-presented at the FOSDEM room together in the "Lisp but Beau= tiful,
> Lisp for Everyone" talk.=C2=A0 A major portion of the talk was ab= out Guix.
> Another major portion of the talk (since "who's representing = feminism"
> keeps coming up) was about Morgan's experiences *writing her
> dissertation using a markup language which is secretly a lisp dialect*=
> on "Women and Wool Working in Ancient Rome".=C2=A0 Her PhD, = Masters, Major,
> and Minor were all embedded in gender and sexual analysis through the<= br> > lived experiences of women, primarily cisgender, throughout history. > No matter how many books you and I have read on gender and sexuality,<= br> > I can guarantee you Morgan has read more.
>
> Anyway if there are any other cisgender women who have presented about=
> Guix in a video presentation I would be pleased, but as far as I know,=
> she's the only one I've seen do so.=C2=A0 Corrections extremel= y welcome.
> Active steps to pull more women into our community, strongly encourage= d.
>
> But at the time I said, "Oh, I think it wrapped up.=C2=A0 The per= son who
> raised it backpedaled and I tried to be friendly in softening the
> closing by saying 'cool let's all get back to hacking!' so= I don't think
> we have to worry about it anymore.
>
> And then we had lunch, and I thought it was over.
>
> Imagine my surprise went I sent what I had thought were three very
> clear, but polite, signals asking to not debate over the the experienc= es
> of transgender people on this list, one of which was a friendly
> acknowledgement that it was over from the person who raised it.=C2=A0 = But the
> most uncomfortable thing for me was that the reply first thanked me fo= r
> being polite about things, but used it as an *opening* for *another* > entry point about that.
>
> Can you imagine how that feels?=C2=A0 How that looks?
>
> And then it continued for an entire week.
>
> Here I'll say something I haven't said previously: I did not c= ome out as
> transgender for a long time because I was *afraid* to come out as
> transgender.=C2=A0 Maybe you know, it's a popular past-time on the= internet
> right now to bully prominent trans technologists into suicide as a kin= d
> of game.=C2=A0 Here are two examples:
>
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0http= s://www.destructoid.com/transgender-dolphin-emulator-developer-dead-age-23/=
>=C2=A0 =C2=A0https://kotaku.com/the-brilliant-snes-emulator-creator-known-as-near-has-= d-1847182851
>
> I currently consider suicide by online bullying to be my highest
> mortality risk factor.=C2=A0 Having a community where I feel safe, it&= #39;s not a
> small thing.=C2=A0 The Guix community has felt like one of the nicest,= safest
> places in FOSS.
>
> This week it felt a lot less so.=C2=A0 The first immediate gut drop I = felt
> when I thought "I hope this doesn't turn out to be a hidden e= ntrypoint
> for someone to begin debating my lived experiences" turned out to=
> absolutely be true, as far as I can tell.=C2=A0 That's how it felt= to me.
>
> On that note, just earlier today, you said:
>
>> The inclusion of 'sex' in the CoC would be to recognize th= e issues
>> faced by female-born people.=C2=A0 As far as I'm aware, no fem= ale-born
>> person has taken part in the discussion at all, because none seem<= br> >> to exist in the community.=C2=A0 (What a coincidence.)
>
> Well as said previously, there's at least one.=C2=A0 She's not= on the
> guix-devel list, so she's cc'ed, because I don't want anyo= ne to think
> I'm misrepresenting her.=C2=A0 She's not on the list but she r= ead everything
> I wrote on here before I sent it.=C2=A0 And that's one cisgender w= oman (with,
> again, no small background in women and gender studies), who *is* a pa= rt
> of this community and has even presented at a conference in a heavily<= br> > Guix-related talk, who has expressed that she wouldn't want to be = taking
> part or associating herself in this community if it takes a gender
> essentialist turn.
>
> At any rate, here's the thing.=C2=A0 Taylan, I really like your wo= rk, I would
> like to think that you didn't mean to bring harm or hurt like this= .=C2=A0 But
> you asked for someone to point to it, and I decided to speak here
> because, since this went on for a week, it must not have been known or=
> understood.
>
> At any rate, the updated upstream CoC, seems great.=C2=A0 +1 from me.= =C2=A0 As I
> said, if it wasn't as an entry point for a debate of experiences, = as
> just talking about protecting *also* sexual characteristics, great.=C2= =A0 But
> if it's an entry point for a debate, and it *has been*, about
> qutestioning the lived experiences of trans folk on the internet,
> consider that it already sucks being a trans person on the internet an= d
> for the most part we just want people to be nice to us so we can do ou= r
> damn work and live in peace.
>
> And I would like for this thread to not, ironically, fork into exactly=
> the same thing I am asking to end.=C2=A0 Acknowledge maybe, and move o= n.
> Or just move on.=C2=A0 Thank you.
>
> Your hacker Guix friend,
>=C2=A0 - Christine

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